(Dreaming by Rolando Cyril)

I had the weirdest dream today...

I was in my living room with my family.  We were all trying to get to sleep.  A lady walked in from the front door and walked back out and my dog was scratching on the front door to go out and I just ignored him and fell asleep.  So I was dreaming that I was dreaming.  I realized that it was a dream then and it was all cool and everything.  I went to go open the front door, not knowing what to expect.  I knew something would turn out to be strange or different.  I opened it to find that I was looking down to long, huge door steps.  It felt cool to know that I was dreaming.  I went down and my yard was just like the yard of the house that I grew up in.  Since I knew that I was dreaming, I let myself fly...I started to float among some trees and I kept thinking how awesome this was (to know that I was dreaming).  I kept saying to myself in my head, "This is a dream."  Then I said to myself, maybe even outloud, "This isn't real."  As soon as I said that I felt an incredible rush as if I had been sucked right out of my dream and back into my mind, onto my bed...kind of difficult to explain.  Anyway, almost as if I felt myself in my dream being rewinded and it went all the way to me back in my bed.  So I woke-up back on my bed and I had sleep paralysis (I couldn't move).  I wanted so much to wake up, sleep paralysis is such a scary feeling of course.  My eyes were open though and I could see pictures on my dresser's headboard.  They were the pictures that I had placed on top of my dresser just the night before.  I had no idea what they were doing positioned that way on my headboard.  I was freaked and wondering how they got there.  With sleep paralysis, it felt like a nightmare.  I thought that maybe my mom put them there.  I tried to move and scream to knock off the sleep paralysis and I broke out of it screaming.  I got up from my bed and then looked back at my dresser to see the pictures again, they weren't there.  I realized I had been dreaming then.  So what?  A dream within a dream within a dream.

Anyway, everything is pretty much the same.  Went to church on Sunday, Carlos came over.  Zeke just got here...friend.  So I guess I gotta go then later

Later....

Well, Zeke just left.  It was boring because there isn't much to do here.  I told Carlos he was coming over and he didn't like it, but then said he trusted me.  He should trust me.  I saw my ex boyfriend today.  I got really sad for like 5 seconds and spent another 5 seconds telling myself it wasn't worth it, which is true.  It isn't worth it.  I turned in my prom pics at Wal-mart so I'll post them when I get them in about 3 days.  Man my entries are always long aren't they?  Well, wish I could think of something clever to say or something, but no...hmm...hmmmm...no....nothing